Last April, I wrote about me thinking I might have leukemia... (see below for what I had written).. Well, you know that number 11? I've just had another one... that lasted two hours (and oh god I hate the taste of blood). heh. And yes, I know that after 20 mins/half hour, you're supposed to go see the doctor... but those that know me also know I don't like doctors; so instead, I tough it. (though I have to admit, had it gone for another couple of hours, I would have said something to mom :P). Heck, it once bled for an hour, while I was in high school... (literally.. I was in 12th grade, but I was actually in the school when it happened. After about 20 minutes, the vice-principal came to check on me; I said I was fine, she told Mari to come see her if it gets worse... I wouldn't let her, so after the hour, when it finally stopped, we went to see the principal; there was 5 minutes left to the class. heh. She gave Mari and I a note, so we were marked absent :D hehe. ... but she looked at me when I mentionned it had just stopped.. then at Mari. Then I told her that it was my fault; I wouldn't let Mari leave. hehe. *shrugs* hehe. Anyhow, I should get to bed now, it's 12h30 am, and I have work at 9h. :P

*goes to bed*





what I had written was :

'Sleep... I need too much sleep... it's not normal....

I don't go see the doctors; I never do. I think last time I went was in 8th grade, when I sprained a muscle in my right shoulder. And even then, I waited a month before going to see the doctor. When someone told me to go, I just kept saying 'Bah. It's probably a sprained muscle'. I was sorta freaked out when it was that. heh. ... but I did end up going; I kept losing the force in my right arm, and since I write with my right hand, it was sorta necessary. ... well, I haven't gone to the doctors since then, even though I've been in pain, pretty much everyday... and not necessarily from the same thing.

I'm 18 years old, and ...
1- I have back pain (complete back... sometimes it's the top, sometimes it's the bottom..)
2- My ankle hurts a lot (mostly the left ankle, but sometimes the right too). (and I sometimes feel that it's the bones that hurt)
3- My left knee pretty much always hurt... I just try to ignore it.... and sometimes the right decides to hurt too. (like the ankle, I sometimes feel that it's the bones that hurt...)
4- My shoulders hurt from time to time
5- My wrists sometimes hurt.
6- A lot of times I have shortness of breath. A lot of the times, just walking from one building to another at Uni, which is about 5 minutes, got me out of breath... lately, I had to take the elevator to go up, instead of taking the stairs, because I'm really too much out of breath.
7- I sometimes have sharp pains in the chest when I breathe.... which makes it hard to breathe.
8- Sometimes, rarely though, I get up, and I have to either sit back down, or hold on to something, because I'm dizy. But then, it passes after a couple of seconds.
9- I'm way more tired than usually
10- I sometimes have big headaches... but I don't take any pills of anykind, so I just last it... usually I try to sleep and it's gone when I wake up, but trying to sleep when you have a headache isn't really easy.
11- I get nosebleeds (really bugging me!)
12- I have menstrual irregularities... I used to have them about once a year... I haven't had them for about two years now.

And I know that I'm weird; although I do want to know what I have (I'm sure I have something...), I don't want to know in a way. If finding out consists of needles, or anything of the sort, I don't want to find out. And if I do find out, I don't want to have treatments, if, again, it consists of needles, operations, or anything of the sort. If finding out would consists of only doing a written test or something, or X-Rays or things like that, then I'd be happy. As long as nothing's poked at me, I'm good. hehe.

(one thing that freaks me out, is that I have a lot of the symptoms of Leukemia... I probably have a lot of symptoms of other things, I just don't know it. ... any of you know? heh)

(right now, my left knee, my left ankle, my left shoulder and my back hurt...)'

Okay, I know I haven't updated in a while. (Oh wow, a month. I didn't think it had been that long). I'm actually surprised that I'm writing now.

Went to work today. Nothing much happened, except I bought a bedroom set. heh. I've loved the set ever since I saw it in the catalogue at work... about 4 months ago. heh. I -should- get it in about two weeks, if the company has it in stock to ship it to us... The set (head, foot, frame (instead of rails, seeing as I have a double, and it's for a queen. heh), dresser, mirror, 2 night tables, and a tv stand, cost me 1267.31$. It's cheaper buying it at work than at Sears for 2 reasons. 1- The prices are just generally cheaper; same set? Night tables were about 80$ cheaper at work, and the rest? About 100-150$ less each. 2- Since I work there, I get tax included in price... so I save another 250$ there. And that's not it, because of some technical problems with the new fridge we bought at work (guys plugged the ice maker, not supposed to cuz plumber supposed to do it. It leaked, wood floor's a little bumpy near the wall. Insurrance guy said we should replace it all. Mom said she wouldn't do that to Denis (my boss. heh)). He insisted on at least doing something; so he gave mom a 300$ store credit. So I get to use that credit for my bedroom set. So it's now 1267.31$-300$. Now, Mari said she -might- buy the one I currently have. Would be 375$. If she does ,it's the 1267.31$-300$-375$. Oh I hope she does. hehe.. if she does, I'll pay the bed set in two weeks. (I have 2 35 hour weeks coming up. Total should be about 705$. If she gets it, I pay 592.31$. So out of my two weeks of work (I don't normally get 35$, btw), I'd get a new bedroom set, and still have a bit more than 100$ left! hehe.

Okay, I currently have a headache; to my right side of the head. So earlier today, I shut off all the lights in my room except my lamp (so that I could actually see! hehe), the tv, cuz well, shutting off the tv light means no more tv... And well, my laptop (duh! I'm writing). Though my laptop, I put the brightness to the lowest possible. I still -think- that I have leukemia (not just because of this, of course), but thre's no way I'm going to the doctors to check it out. 1- I hate doctors. 2- To check for leukemia, you need blood tests. Which means they need to take blood samples, which means, needles. Needles and me = no. Funny that I'd rather suffer, than have a needle and be able to determine what's wrong with me. The maths doesn't add up. Suffer a lot and not know, versus suffer a little and know. heh. But in my mind, the pain I suffer right now, I can't do anything about it. If I go to the doctor and needles are involved, I'm doing it. I can do something about it; I can decide not to do it. Is it weird that I'm -almost- hoping that I get in an accident so that I end up in the hospital and that they can get blood when I'm unconscious? heh. (hey, I did say almost. hehe. I don't want to end up in the hospital. (or in an accident, for that matter)).

Talking about hospitals, I went to the hospital on the 15th of July. But for a -non-accident- reason. My sister gave birth to a beautiful baby girl :D. Jessica Melanie Boisvert, was born on my sister's wedding aniversary :)

Went to the cottage last week-end. Didn't do much, but on Sunday, we did go on the tube. I didn't stay long; my back, plus my toe (I hit my toe the other day, the toe I sorta broke but didn't a couple of years ago. It was still hurting, and having it slap against the water every bump didn't help) made an awful combination, so I told (or more, signed) my dad to stop and I got on the boat, Mari stay on the tube. ... The next day (Monday) I woke up, and -everywhere- above my stomach (meaning breasts and up) was hurting. And that, till Thursday (yesterday). heh.

I, uh, don't really have anything more to say. I -might- update later in the month. We'll see. heh.

Blessed Be,
Catheryne

[mood| happy]
[music| Radio. 'Rock Detente']

I haven't updated... that because I didn't really have anything to update. heh.

Anyhow. Marianne and I went shopping (yay mangas! hehe), restaurant (East Side Mario's) and to the theaters (The Lake House), last Tuesday. Was fun :D .... and it had been 2 months since I'd last seen her... Movie was good... but strange in a way. hehe.

I'm currently at work. Nothing more to do, and I've been here for an hour and 15 minutes. Still got 3 hours and 45 minutes left of work (plus my lunch time, but of course, lunch time doesn't count in that). *is currently alone in the store* Guy (one of my bosses) is gone to the post office. Lets hope he comes back with some work for me >.<. hehe.

Anyhow. Saturday, after work, I went to the cottage. Stopped at Zellers/Staples/ToysRUs for some Window Markers. hehe. Don't know if they actually work, but hey! hehe

Guy back. Mail here. Got 4 enveloppes. That will last me what, 20 minutes? hehe. *hits head*

brb. hehe

back.. and apparently, it only lasted me 10 minutes *hits head* hehe.

Back to what I was saying.. hehe. Went to the cottage. My dad was doing a lobster fest kinda thing. and for me and the 2 year olds, chicken! (I don't eat lobster). I have to admit, it was boring. I drove almost 2 hours to get there, eat chicken and then go on the computer while boiling. Then didn't sleep well; -inflatable- mattress wasn't comfortable. Woke up at 5 to 5ham; Mel had come up to feed Eve (almost 4 weeks old). When I saw the time, I went 'no way!' and put back my earplugs so that I could listen to music and fall asleep... at 7ham, Mel came back up, but this time with Simon; he was up, and so, didn't want to stay in the bedroom. Since I woke up again, and knew they would't go back downstairs, I got up.

We talked a bit, I mostly went on my computer. heh. Went a bit in the water. (bit meaning not long, but also not a lot... only up to about my knees.) Wasn't going to actually go in the water, but Simon (who was in the water) was escaping! hehe. So I took off my sandals and ran to go get him. hehe. Anyhow ate chicken again for lunch, and told dad I had to leave at 4h to go get groceries. Of course, it was just an excuse, but the more I thought about it, the more I needed food for work for today... and usually, stores close at 6h on Sundays... but when I got to Loblaws, I saw it closes at 8h. tehe. But it was just boring alone at the cottage (okay, yes, there was 12 other people, but that's not the same. hehe. I mean alone as in without Mari). And without A/C, It was tooooooo hot!

So I left early, and got groceries, and then went home. :D

This week, I'll be working Monday, Tuesday, Wednesday, Thursday, Friday, Saturday. Although all from 9h to 3h, except Friday. Friday will be from 9h to 8h. I'm soo gonna be bored. hehe. Just that, if I'm already done my work, and I still have half the day today, what will be of the rest of the week? but the thing is, yes, I'm bookkeeper, but I'm also assistant. Which means, I answer phone if they are busy, and I go see clients if multiple ones are in the store at the same time... so when I finish accounting, I'm pretty much here, just in case. At least I can bring books, and have the net. I should make about 400$ (a bit more, but with taxes thingies taken off, not sure exactly home much)this week... woohoo! hehe. Same for in two weeks, and then two other weeks in August :D. (boss taking off = me enter... 2 boss, each taking 2 weeks off (though not together) = me getting 4 weeks of 35 hours, of about 400$. :D hehe.

Anyhow, I'm gonna go read my Angel magazine. hehe. *wavles* (or maybe eat. *ponders*)

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Mari... The extansion to the cottage won't be finished by the week-end in August... so no pool... We can still go, of course. hehe. Dad said he'd see me then, I said it would depend on if you can go or not. hehe. The he said I could go alone.. I did tell him it's more boring when I'm alone... and that it's my only week-end off anyways. If you can't come, I'm not going. I'll stay in my basement with the net and a/c, instead of at the cottage net-less and a/c-less. hehe. Louise says it should be finished by end of August, so if we go at beginning of Sept, it -should- be ready... which brings me to: We going at beginning of September? (If you can, I call dad and ask if okay. I also ask dad if okay if Do comes, depending on if he can or not... but I need to know if you can before hand. heh. .. and so, are we going in August (the 11-12-13) and are we going at beginning of Sept? (somewhere between Sept 1-2-3-4-5-6. hehe. Which days? hehehe (keeping in mind that we start Uni the 7th (urgh)) Oh, and Mari, I got a check for Uni, though not for total amount... got for parking, which you give me half so that I can buy my books :P. When I get the amount of the Tuiton fees, he wants me to email/fax them to him so he'll send the actual amount... Oh, and Mari? Mathieu's new girlfriend's name is Marie-Pierre (no clue how she writes it, but still). Although he shouldn't, if my dad starts calling you Marie-Pierre, you'll know why... same as when he did with Marie-Eve. hehe. (and I find it strange that both the girlfriends that Mathieu had/has that I've met, their names start with Marie. hehe.)

[mood| bored]
[music| TV. Watching 'Picture Perfect' (movie... playing on tv...)]

I just realized I haven't posted in a while...

Well, on the June 18th, I bought a Nintendo DS Light, with some (6) games. I also got a wi-fi connector, so that two of the games (Mario Kart DS and Animal Crossing WW), I can play with other people. (btw, if you happen to have it, what's your friend code? :D hehe)

On June 10, the day started off not so good; I woke up at 8h45. I work at 9h. It takes me 15 minutes to drive from home to work. You do the math. (keep in mind that I can't come to work in pjs. hehe) 5 minutes after I was up, I was out of the house, and in the car. hehe.

Anyhow, on other news...
Report cards became official on the 5th of June... and so, I don't have to worry about failing ADM class... I had passed (with 53%) but there was one requirement that I didn't get... and so, technically, I'm not supposed to pass... but obviously, I wasn't about to say something. lol. and now that it became official, no need to worry; note won't change :D hehe. (So didn't want to have to retake the class again)

On June 11, at 3h24am, I became the proud aunt of a baby girl, Eve Marguerite Lalonde :D

This is Jean (Eve's uncle), Nicholas (Eve's cousin), and Eve. This was taken in the hospital, about 12 hours after she was born. (Nicholas is giving Eve a hug :))


This picture was taken yesterday, at Simon's birthday. (Simon being Eve's 2 year old brother). :D

On other news, I don't know what else to add. tehehehe. So, I, uh, I'm gonna go do... something. hehe.

[mood| tired]
[music| Silence :o ... okay, so it's because one song just ended, and the next hasn't started yet. hehe.]

Okay, so I had said that I might, but might not, post pictures of the week-end at the cottage. Mari wanted me to post them... so I'm posting album pages I made for everyone..


( Lj-cut for obvious reasons... Cottage album pages )

[mood| happy]
[music| "Qu'est-ce que j'ai fait", by Anthony Stewart Head. But I can also hear the radio, and the tv. >.<]

I'm currently at work. It's my lunch time... for another 25 minutes. Then work for another 2 hours and 30 minutes, then home! (I work from 9h to 3h, with an hour lunch.)

The long weekend was fun... (below)

I seem to post a lot when I'm at work. I guess since I don't have my computer, I can't do all I want during my free time, so LJ fills it up. hehe. I could also read... but the book I'm currently reading is a computer one (friend wrote it... not published...) so I can't really read it while I'm at work. I could draw, or whatever, but I don't feel like it :P.

I bought a DVD recorder Monday. But the VCR, the DVD player and the DVD recorder wouldn't all play on the same tv... couldn't connect. But I found out that only because the TV only had one set of Outputs. So I switched the tv in my room with the one in the family room (that's also downstairs). And now it all works :D. Only thing? TVs are heavy, when moved alone >.<. Also, now I have bruises on my legs, for the times I had to put the tv on my leg for suport, otherwise it would have fallen. And my left arm hurts. I think I pulled something. heh. The morale of this story? Never bring big, heavy tvs by yourself. Of course, I know myself, and I know I'll do it again when the time comes, but *shrugs* hehe. (Stupider thing? Mom's having the main floor re-painted and stuff. The painter told me if I was going to move the tvs, to tell him and he'd help me move them. But I still did it myself, then went up and told him I'd done it. hehe.)

Yesterday, it was sooooo hot! It was something like 28ºC, but with humidex? 40ºC! I hid in my basement, like I always do, but then even more so. My mom told me to come sit outside, with her and my aunt. I told her, 'Are you nuts?' and went downstairs. hehe. I'd been outside for a minute and it was too hot. Did she really think I'd sit there for a while? hehe.

Today, for work, I decided to put on a tanktop, instead of a t-shirt. I'm so glad that I did... 1- it's still hot today. 2- One of the a/c machines is broken.

I'm bored. hehe. I wonder if I'll have work to do once my lunch break is over. (I pretty much did all the bookkeeping that had to be done. The mail has already been picked up, and done. So unless he(boss) can think of something to make me do, I'll probably wait here till 3h, and answer the phone if he's busy... if no phone, or if him not busy, read magazine, or go on the net. We'll see. heh.

Anyways, still break for another 15 minutes, but I'll go down, and fill my water bottle and stuff. Hopefully get something to do :P.

*wavles*

~*~ Kate ~*~
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Week-end

Jenn drove from Pierrefonds to my house. Once she got here, she followed me to my dad's house. We dropped her car there, and when to pick the others at the airport. Steph and Amber came out first; and we recognized them right away. An hour later, Rosie arrived (her plane was delayed, a fact that we knew before leaving my house). Again, we recognized each other right away. I was looking in her direction when she came, and we both waved like crazy. hehe. We made our way to the car, and then we went back to my dad's house, to pick up Jenn's car. Then, Rosie stayed with me in my car, Jenn, Steph and Amber went in Jenn's car. They followed me to the cottage. Not long after we arrived, we ate supper (was about 7h pm). Then we talked a bit and went downstairs. We decided to watch a movie. The big question was which one? We ended up talking and deciding a movie... for an hour and a half! Then we finally decided on Cruel Intentions 2. After that one, we watched Ever After. Then, we talked, and talked, and talked... then went to bed. hehe.

Saturday, I woke up at 9h20... the others woke up around noon. heh. So I read, went a bit on the net... When they had all waken up, we got prepared and went back into town; we went to the Rideau Center (shopping mall). At 6h (stores closes at 6h) we made our way back to the cottage. When we arrived, yet again, we talked. hehe. Then ate. We went downstairs. Took about an hour this time before deciding on a movie... and then another. The first was Mastermind. The second, I don't remember. heh. Then we talked :P.

Sunday, we stayed at the cottage. Again, I woke up at 9h30. Again, they woke up around noon. heh. We did a puzzle, we talked, we almost went on a boat ride (motor wouldn't start... had to be charged since it hadn't been used since last year. and then it started raining so we went in). We played a game of HP Scene It. They played Jenga Truth or Dare. (I did logic puzzles while they did that :P. Truth or Dare isn't my kind of game). Then we watched a movie, Simply Irresistable. Then we talked, and talked and talked again. hehe.

Monday, we woke up at about 9h. All of us. But we had planned to leave by 10, to go walk to the Parlement, and the ByWard Market, yet be in time for Rosie's plane back home. (supposed to arrive about 2-3 hours before plane leaves...). We ended up leaving at about 11. We droped Jenn's car in Gatineau, then we did what we planned on doing. hehe. Then we went to drop Rosie at the airport. We made our way back to Gatineau to get the car, then headed to my house, where Steph checked for plane and train tickets for Montreal(Jenn's) to Edmonton(Rosie's). Plane was cheaper, so Steph bought tickets. Then Jenn, Steph and Amber left, and went to Jenn's place. A couple of hours later (1 or 2) I fell asleep. hehe. .. and it was only about 6h30. At 9h, mom put my laptop on the floor, cuz it was falling. heh. I felt it and woke up... only to fall back asleep about 5 minutes later. The next time I woke up? It was about 9h50am. heh. I was tired :P. I was happy that my mom had put my laptop on the floor though. Wouldn't have wanted it to fall and break or get damaged or something.

And I know we didn't do much at the weekend... it rained all the time! *stare at the rain*

Anyhow, that was pretty much the week-end. hehe. I might post pictures later. I don't know.

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Here's a couple of drawings that I did last year... I tell you right now, I suck at drawing...



Here's a drawing I did, from the picture below.



Okay we can't really see them well, but there's three drawings of my nephew Nicholas at the top, and then a drawing of his hand at the bottom (all of which when he was just a couple of days old). I don't have the original photos... and for the hand, it was a hand print in clay, or something of the sort... so obviously, my sister has it... I sharpened the image of the hand, with Fireworks, s that it would be more visible... *points below*

This is a poem that I liked... although it's in french.
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LA MORT D'UNE INNOCENTE

Je suis allée à la fête, maman, je me suis souvenue de tes indications.
Tu m'as dit de ne pas boire, maman, je n'ai bu que du soda à la célébration.
Je me suis sente fière, maman, comme tu m'avais dit que je me sentirais.
Je n'ai pas consommé, maman, même si des amis insistaient.

Je sais que j'ai fait le bon choix, maman, je sais que tu as toujours raison.
La fête est terminée, maman, tout le monde retourne à la maison.
En montant dans la voiture, maman, je savais que j'arriverais en un morceau,
Car tu m'as élevé responsable, maman, moi ton petit oiseau.

En quittant l'entrée, maman, comme j'attendais au coin de la route.
L'autre conducteur ne m'a pas vue, maman, il m'a frappé sans que je m'en doute.
Étendue sur le pavé, maman, j'entends le policier dire que l'autre est réchauffé.
C'est moi qui en subit les conséquences, maman, moi qui viens tout juste de graduer.

Mourante sur la chaussé, maman, je souhaite ton arrivée.
Comment cela a pu arriver, maman? Ma vie vient de s'envoler.
Une marre m'entoure, maman, c'est mon sang.
J'entends l'ambulancier dire, maman, que je n'en ai pas pour longtemps.

Je veux te dire, maman, que je n'ai rien consommé.
Ce sont les autres, maman, qui n'ont pas pensé.
Nous étions probablement à la même fête, maman, c'est peut-être même un ami,
La différence c'est qu'il a bu, maman, et que c'est moi qui perds la vie.

Pourquoi les gens boivent-ils, maman? Ça peut entraîner la mort.
Je ressens beaucoup de douleur, maman, comme un couteau dans mon corps.
Le gars qui m'a frappée n'est pas blessé, maman, je troube ça injuste.
Je suis étendue dans mon sang, maman, et lui que lui arrivera-t-il au juste?

Dis à ma soeur de ne pas pleurer, maman, dis à papa d'être fier.
Quand j'irai au ciel, maman, fais écrire ''Mon Ange'' sur la pierre.
Quelqu'un aurait dû lui dire, maman, qu'on ne prend pas le volant en boisson.
Si on le lui avait dit, maman, je serais déjà à la maison.

Mon souffle est de plus en plus court, maman, et j'ai de plus en plus froid.
S'il te plaît ne pleure pas, maman, tu as toujours été la pour moi.
J'ai une dernière question, maman, avant de dire au revoir.
Je n'ai pas bu, maman, alors pourquoi c'est moi qui pars?

©Auteur inconnu

This is a french poem, that I liked, which is why I decided to post it here. It was written by a friend of my sister's, in, um, 1989. hehe. (when they were in 7 or 8th grade)

L'OISEAU

Un beau matin ensoleillé,
J'ai vu un oiseau se perché.
Il était de toute beauté,
Avec ses ailes argentés.

J'ai voulu m'approcher,
Mais il s'est envolé,
J'ai dit: 'Non, n'est pas peur'
J'était tout en pleur.

Il battait des ailes,
Là-haut dans le ciel.
Il est en liberté,
Et non pas encager.

Il avait un chant mélodieux,
Qui rendait tout le monde heureux.
Mais envieux de son chant et de sa beauté,
Le monde voulait le capturer.

Un jour il fut en captivité,
Dans une cage non éclairé.
L'oiseau était des plus attrister,
De ne plus être ne liberté.

Il ne chantait plus.
Il ne mangeait plus.
Tout ce qu'il voulais,
C'est d'avoir la paix.

Et c'est à ce moment ci,
Que la porte s'entrouvrit.
Il vit la lumière,
Il est libre comme l'air.

Le monde avait compris,
Qu'un oiseau vivait sa vie,
De joie et de liberté,
Et jusqu'à l'éternité.

© Mélanie Beauchemin '89

This poem inspired by my nephews; the two little guys in the picture above. Original french version under the english version. I like the french (original) version of the poem better (it rhymes! hehe), but I like them both.

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THE CHILD

The life of a child begins at birth,
With the piercing cries of an innocent baby.
This small newborn baby is always impotent,
In the world that surrounds him during his childhood.

That life continues with hope.
The child grows each year while learning,
With sadness and friendship while having fun,
But also with a lot of tolerance.

The child will be able to find everything; a perfect happiness.
Even on the days that are filled with fear,
He will be able to avoid the dangerous moments.

The child will be loved, and he will love.
He will be at all times one of the merriest,
And year by year, the child will age and smile.

©Isabelle Lemay
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French version:

L'ENFANT

La vie d'un enfant débute à la naissance,
Avec les cries perçants d'un bébé innocent.
Ce petit nouveau-né est toujours impuissant,
Au monde qui l'entour pendant son enfance.

Cette vie continue avec de l'espérance.
L'enfant grandi à chaque année en apprenant,
Avec tristesse et amitié en s'amusant,
Mais aussi avec beaucoup de tolérance.

L'enfant saura trouver tout; un parfait bonheur.
Même pour les journées ou il aura très peur,
Il pourra éviter les moments dangereux.

L'enfant sera aimé et il aimera.
Il sera à tout temps un des plus joyeux,
Et d'années en années, l'enfant vieillira et sourira.

©Isabelle Lemay

[mood| anxious]
[music| No clue... radio's playing. Not really listening to it ]

*waves to all*

I'm currently at work... lunch time, althought it's about to end soon.... so I'm going to make this quick.

Bones season finale was last night...it was great! better than I expected :D. I can't wait for it to come on DVD (although I have the episodes already). I'm sooo gonna buy! :D hehe. ... and I can't wait for the next Season to start.

School notes... although the report card won't be official until the 5th of June, I got a B (70-75%) in MacroEconomy, a B (70-75%) in Algebra, a A-(80-85%) in Calculus, a A-(80-85%) in French, and a D (50-55%) (gah) in Administration. ... I got 53% as final grade in Admin... and I was actually surprised. heh. (I thought lower). But you see, I passed, but didn't pass... the teacher has a 'we need 35/70 on the exams (midterm being worth 30, and the final 40) to pass the class'. Well, Although I technically pass (got 53% as final grade), I didn't meet that requirement... (neither did Angy, a friend of mine).... but it seems like the teacher didn't notice it. hehe. So we didn't get an F, but a D. *hopes the teacher doesn't notice it* hehe. Technically, she still has until the 5th of June to notice and change... and if she notice, we fail the class and have to take it up again... so she better not notice. heh.

I'm meeting friends this week-end... meeting in a 'never actually met before'. heh. Well, one of them I have, in February. Anyways... Jenn(from Pierrefonds.. the one I met in February) is driving in. Steph(Australia), Amber (Texas) and Rosie (Alberta) are flying in tomorrow, and we're gonna go to my dad's cottage. Only a couple of things though... 1- It's pretty much the week-end where there's a lot of 'mouches noires'. 2- It's supposed to rain all week-end (which would technically make 1 okay, since if it rains, we're inside... hehe). 3- They speak english; I speak french. I'll have to remember to speak english with all of them, and with my dad... gonna be weird. hehe. 4- I need to go pick them up at the airport... I've never been to the airport by myself... no clue how to get there. Will have to get directions; I better not get lost. >.< heh.

Anyhow... back to work! hehe

*Waves*

Blessed Be,

~*~Kate~*~

Okay. I'm currently at work... in my work time. I've been here an hour, and already I've got nothing left to do... one of my bosses (got 2... they are brothers...) told me that he had some stuff to do, he'd go get the mail later... meanwhile, if the phone rings, to answer and take a message. heh. So I'm currently on my work time, writing this, then writing a letter to a friend, then reading. Fun! hehe. I get to read and write, and be paid 12$ an hour for it! hehe... It's currently 10am. I'm here till 3h. With an hour of lunch time somewhere in there.... there better be lots of mail. hehe.

Rosie (Alberta), Amber (Texas), Steph(Australia), Jenn (Quebec) are coming next week-end with me to my dad's cottage... it's gonna be so weird >.< The only one I've met in person is Jenn, and that, only in March. Rosie's coming for sure; plane ticket has been bought. Jenn, I'm not sure. It's looking towards the yes, but it depends on her mom... and since she doesn't live that far, it would be either her driving, her parents dropping her off, or bus or train... so she can technically decide the day before or something. (although we'd kinda need to know :P). Steph's already in Texas (she's doing a 6-7 months trip around the US and Canada... spending 2 weeks at Amber's, and she's already there... Steph and Amber haven't bought their plane ticket to here yet... Steph told me Amber hasn't got a passport yet. First my mouth dropped, since it's in less than 2 weeks... then I did a bit of research, gave her links to where to get one and stuff. Then I noticed that on the site, it said that as long as she had birth certificate and drivers licence, she didn't need passport. So I sent the paragraph (and the site) to Steph (since she's the one who was online at the time). Amber doesn't have her birth certificate, but knows where to get one... so it should take less time (and money) to get birth certificate than to get passport. heh. Then they'll book plane tickets... hoping that they'll have any left that aren't too costy. heh... and hopefully, they'll have some available close to the time that Rosie gets in.. otherwise, I'll have to make two trips to the airport and stuff...

Anyways, gonna go write letter to Jenn now, and then read a bit.

*waves*

~*~Kate~*~

P.S. Got a B (70-75%) on Economy, and a A- (80-85%) on Calculus as final grades. No clue for French, Algebra and Administration yet... don't even know for the last two if I passed the class >.<.

Gah. Last I updated, it was the last day of school, and the exams were coming. Well, yesterday, I finished my exams... so it's officially summer! hehe.

Had French exam first. Don't know how I did, don't really care. I passed, that's all I care about. And seeing as I had passed without the exam, obviously with the exam, I still pass. hehe.

Then I had Economy (macro). I ended up getting 52.2% on the final exam... and finishing with a B (70%). ... never went to class either! hehe. I like my grade. tehe. And I like the teacher for putting the notes up before we get our report cards. I doubt the others will... and if they don't, I have to wait till the 5th of JUNE to know if I passed or failed the class >.<

Then I had Calculus. I think I did okay on the exam, and so, I think I passed.

Then Algebra. Again, I think I did okay and that I passed. Not sure. but hope so.

The Administration... I think I did bad. I need 45% on the exam to pass, and I don't even know if I got that. *hits head* We'll see. I hope she posts the notes. I just want to know if I passed or not! >.< (or let her email us whether we passed or failed >.<)

Started my job on the 11th. I love it! :D. Too bad it's only till September. But I'm glad to have it until then *nodnod*

I don't have much else to say right now... Watching Crossing Jordan. It's a new epi. I'm also reading 'Fatal Voyage' by Kathy Reichs. It's her series of books that the tv show 'Bones' is based on.

Gonna get back to that... update later...

*waves*

Kate

I'm currently at University. It's the last day of classes, and yet, I'm still hoping that French class will be canceled, even though I know it won't... we have a homework to hand in, and were supposed to do a revision for the exam. But I don't want it... I want to go home and sleep. ... and of course, I can't skip it, on account that if I skip it, I don't have access to the final exam, and if I want to pass the class, chances are that I need to do the final exam. heh.

Sleep... I need too much sleep... it's not normal....

I don't go see the doctors; I never do. I think last time I went was in 8th grade, when I sprained a muscle in my right shoulder. And even then, I waited a month before going to see the doctor. When someone told me to go, I just kept saying 'Bah. It's probably a sprained muscle'. I was sorta freaked out when it was that. heh. ... but I did end up going; I kept losing the force in my right arm, and since I write with my right hand, it was sorta necessary. ... well, I haven't gone to the doctors since then, even though I've been in pain, pretty much everyday... and not necessarily from the same thing.

I'm 18 years old, and ...
1- I have back pain (complete back... sometimes it's the top, sometimes it's the bottom..)
2- My ankle hurts a lot (mostly the left ankle, but sometimes the right too). (and I sometimes feel that it's the bones that hurt)
3- My left knee pretty much always hurt... I just try to ignore it.... and sometimes the right decides to hurt too. (like the ankle, I sometimes feel that it's the bones that hurt...)
4- My shoulders hurt from time to time
5- My wrists sometimes hurt.
6- A lot of times I have shortness of breath. A lot of the times, just walking from one building to another at Uni, which is about 5 minutes, got me out of breath... lately, I had to take the elevator to go up, instead of taking the stairs, because I'm really too much out of breath.
7- I sometimes have sharp pains in the chest when I breathe.... which makes it hard to breathe.
8- Sometimes, rarely though, I get up, and I have to either sit back down, or hold on to something, because I'm dizy. But then, it passes after a couple of seconds.
9- I'm way more tired than usually
10- I sometimes have big headaches... but I don't take any pills of anykind, so I just last it... usually I try to sleep and it's gone when I wake up, but trying to sleep when you have a headache isn't really easy.
11- I get nosebleeds (really bugging me!)
12- I have menstrual irregularities... I used to have them about once a year... I haven't had them for about two years now.

And I know that I'm weird; although I do want to know what I have (I'm sure I have something...), I don't want to know in a way. If finding out consists of needles, or anything of the sort, I don't want to find out. And if I do find out, I don't want to have treatments, if, again, it consists of needles, operations, or anything of the sort. If finding out would consists of only doing a written test or something, or X-Rays or things like that, then I'd be happy. As long as nothing's poked at me, I'm good. hehe.

(one thing that freaks me out, is that I have a lot of the symptoms of Leukemia... I probably have a lot of symptoms of other things, I just don't know it. ... any of you know? heh)

(right now, my left knee, my left ankle, my left shoulder and my back hurt...)

Anyways, I'm going to be going; I don't have much else to add....
Class in an hour. Nooooooooo. At least it's the last class... until September anyways. But now, exams... I have one the 18th, one the 22nd, the 23rd, the 28th and the 29th of April.

Oh! I forgot to mention. I got a job! ... until September anyways. Going to be doing the books (tenue de livre... accounting), and when the dudes that own it are busy and customers come in, go talk to them, and tell them the dudes will be there shortly. Also, if they are busy, and the phone rings, answer the phone... I start at 8h30 Tuesday morning. Can't wait! ... Job/money :D hehe.

*waves to all*

Blessed be,

~*~Kate~*~

I’m alive!

Okay, I know I haven’t posted in a while… but I didn’t really know what to say. I’m currently at University, waiting on a bench in front of my class, for people to leave so that I can go in. There’s no wireless network here, for some reason (sometimes I catch it, sometimes I don’t)… so I’m currently writing this in Microsoft Word; to be transferred to lj when I get home.

What happened in the last, uh, month and a half? Hehe. Well, both my sisters are pregnant again, and both are expecting a girl… one’s for the beginning of June, the other or the end of July. I can’t wait!

I did projects, I did mid-terms. Now Friday is the last day of the semester, and then, 3 weeks of exam period, although my exams are the 18th, the 22nd, the 23rd, the 28th and the 29th.

My notes:
French: 82% -- worth 20% of final grade.
??? -- worth 20% of final grade. (to be added when I receive tomorrow. Hehe)
??? – worth 20% of final grade. It’s due Friday; so I won’t know for a while
??? – participation, worth 10%. Won’t know..
??? – final exam (won’t know for a really long while) 30% of final grade
Calculus: 70% -- worth 20% of final grade
100% -- worth 20% of final grade
??? --- final exam – 60% of final grade
Algebra: 82% -- worth 20% of final grade
82.5% -- worth 5% of final grade
70% -- worth 5% of final grade
??? -- worth, maybe, 20% of final grade (probably not… if the final exam is higher,
this midterm doesn’t count…) will know later… but I didn’t do well, that I know. – checked. Got 40% .heh.
??? – worth 50%, or 70%, depending on if higher than second midterm (it better be!)
Economy: 84% -- worth 10% of final note
65.22% -- worth 10% of final note
78.3% -- worth 10% of final note
??? – worth 10% of final note (should receive soon)
??? – worth 45% of final note
0% -- worth 5% of final note (it’s participation… haven’t gone to class except for
the midterms, so I won’t get points there hehe)
Administration: 57% -- worth 30% of final grade
78% -- worth 15% of final grade
72% -- worth 5% of final grade
74.5% -- worth 10% of final grade
??? – worth 40% of final grade

Okay, now I moved to the inside of the class. Hehe. Class (Well, the DGD) should start in 5 minutes, and we are 8 in the class. >.< (on about 22, plus TA). Last week, TA didn’t show up; we ended up waiting for half an hour before we all decided to leave… we’re hoping she doesn’t show up today too. Hehe. Although if she doesn’t, I’ll have driven to Ottawa just to wait and go back home; at least last week I needed to come to drop a homework for Economy. (I don’t go to that class… technically, I have it later today… heh). *prays for her to not come… although she probably will this time* You see, we’re supposed to receive up to 10 points for participation last Monday and today, if we participate… if she doesn’t show, we have to get them… Shoot. She just walked in theclass.


Friday, after Uni, Mari and I went to see ‘She’s the Man’. I think I’ve never laughed that much for a movie. Hehe. Anyhow, I’m gonna go for now… continue the entry once I’m home…

Okay. I’m back home now. :D hehe. I don’t really know what else to add..so I’ll go away now. Hehe.

*waves to all*

Blessed Be,

Catheryne

Currently watching Buffy (still in my marathon :D). I'm currently watching 'The Body' (in Season 5). The episodes sure flies by fast.

I'm still thinking about wanting my mom to die. Seeing this episode, it just got me thinking who I'd call first, and stuff like that. Chances are, I'd have to call my sisters; both at school (primary school... one's a teacher, the other one's a special needs teacher... they both work at the same school). Then I'd probably call her sister (and she'd call her brothers. hehe. I don't even know their numbers. I don't even know them all. heh.) Then I'd probably call Pierrette (mom's friend... sister's sister-in-law..). Then probably Ray (friend of the family). Then that's it. (well, call Marianne to have her come over...).

I know I shouldn't want my mom to die...but I can't help it. My life would be just so much better with her dead. I know that's morbid, but what can I say? I keep wanting to strangle her when she talks to or about me. And seeing as I'm 18, I could just continue living in this house. I would't have to move in with my dad (that was the thing that worried me about my mom dieing when I was younger). You see, although my dad lives about 45 minutes away, he lives in a different province. That would also mean living away from Marianne... And before, it would have meant going to another high school... (now that it's Uni, it doesn't matter). Anyways, now that I'm 18, I could just live here. Marianne would maybe move in. (and she'd pay half the bills too :D). We might get a dog (husky). Although we don't have a lawn in the back (my mom had it landscaped), Mari said she'd take the dog for a walk everyday. So it could stay in the house, and have fun. I'd either stay downstairs in my room, or move to my mom's room. One minute, I'm saying I'd stay, the next that I'd move up. I guess I'll only know when she dies. I'm currently leaning towards the move upstairs, but I just don't know how I'd feel being in her room. Although I would paint the room, so it would change a bit...

I want my mom to die! If only I could know when she would die. Or, at what age. She's currently 56. Going to turn 57 this year. I want her to die! (morbid, I know). When will she die? die, Die, DIE!

Okay, I'm going to go back to my Buffy watching...

Blessed Be,
Catheryne

Did I ever mention I hate exams? *Growls* heh. ... Tuesday, I had a Calculus exam. I have no idea how I did... but it showed that I'm the only one that never attends class... when the teacher started passing the line-sheet booklets, he stared at me in a 'Who the heck are you?' kind of way. Then, when he passed again, but this time, passing the actual exam sheets, he asked me if I was me. hehe. ... and it's freaky when a teacher asks, while you're doing an exam, if he can look, which also means, stop doing your exam, turn the exam sideways so that he can see, and wait till he's done >.< (I'd have been more freaked out if he had done it to me only, but he did it to a couple of others before that, and after...).

Then, I had a Algebra exam Friday morning. I think that the 6 multiple choices (1 point each) and the 7th question (7 points + bonus), I did well. The 8th question (7 points), I'm not sure... I'm pretty sure I have the right answer for b and c... but seeing as I didn't even use formulas/matrices or anything (which I'm sure we should have), I don't know if I'll get any points there... Then I spend 4 hours and a half studying for my Administration exam, which was at 4h. The first 5 questions, which were definitions (worth 20 points total), I didn't do well. The next 5 questions (worth 30 points total) were half a page answers. At this point, I was sure I had failed. But then, the next 2 questions were maximum 2 pages answers, worth 50 points total... and I'm pretty sure I did good on those ones. Those two could help me get a passing note on exam, or at least get close to passing. We'll see when the notes are posted for all of my exams. I finished the ADM exam in an hour (we were given 3h), but I wasn't allowed to leave for another half hour... and when that happens, I'm bound to start drawing somewhere... having given my exam in already, I drew on my hand. *currently has 5 stars on my hand* hehe.

Then Mari and I left; we went to Futureshop; she bought a iTunes gift card and a movie, I think, and I bought a power thingy for iPod, so that I can plug in wall, instead of laptop. Then we went to wal-mart... there had been freezing rain the night before, and well, let's just say my scrapper was no more >.<. I had just started taking the ice off when it broke. (before that, I had to use the end of a shovel to break the ice to actually be able to open the door, and take the scrapper out of the car >.<). Bought a couple of groceries... mostly chocolate... hehe. Called mom to see if she wanted coke; she told me about a car accident that was on the 417 (Highway)... 38 cars... 4 dead... 12 badly injured (critical conditions)... about 40 (if not more) minor injured... At that point, I was glad that we had been at Uni, and not on the road... the accident having happened at the exit we take. Also, Mom had a oil change appointment. She went, came back. Guy said she didn't really need one right now and stuff. If she'd stayed, she'd probably have been around where the accident was, at that time; she might have been included.

I'm currently watching Buffy Season 1 (yes, I've gone on another marathon :D)

...

Went to Pointe-Claire (Quebec) Monday. Came back today. Mom and I went there to meet Jenn (online friend) and her parents. You see, me, Jenn (her), Steph, Amber, Rosie are all online friends. We met online about 3-4 years ago. We decided this year to meet. In May, we'll be going to my dad's cottage for a week-end (the long week-end), where there's room for everyone (and it's free... including food! hehe). The only thing, si that we don't know if Jenn's parents will let her come.. (they didn't when I invited her to come to the cottage last summer), seeing as they had never met us (I/parents could have been murderers, for all they knew). So, mom and I met them Monday... hopefully, it convinced them to let her come.

Anyways, I'm going back to my Buffy marathon. :D.

Blessed Be,
Catheryne

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Dream Wednesday morning (22nd of Feb): Marianne and I were waiting at University during the hours we don't have classes. She asked me if I wanted to go out with her. (I sorta told her (in a survey type thingy) last summer, that I had a crush on her). We never actually got to the dating part... that night after classes, we were heading to my house to tell my mom that we were engaged.

That's all I remember from the dream. Although I know that I had mixed feelings; my mom (and anyone that isn't Marianne or online people) don't know that I'm bi... So all I could think on the way to the house was which one I'd tell first. That I'm bi, or that I was engaged to a girl.

It's not normal to not care if your mother dies, is it?

... I know that if she dies, I get the house(yay!), seeing as my sisters already have a house, and this is currently mine... My house is in a 'Adult Community(5 houses stuck together... I'm currently the youngest here (I'm 18) by at least 20 years... lol) (the other day, when she was sorta drunk, she told Nat and me that I'd get the house... that's how I know I'm getting it; it's not just me guessing) ... and I actually can't wait till she does die, so that I can live in my own house alone (in a no parents way, as Marianne would probably move in).

It's strange, but the only one direct-family-wise that I care if they die is my sister Nathalie(view *** below). The rest, I don't care. (Of course, then there's my nephews... and niece and baby(unkonwn sex) to be. hehe. .. but I want to live in my own house without my mom; I want to have more money (which I'd get with my mom dieing), I want to have total control over my money (I'm tired of explaining every bit of purchase I make if it's a lto that I spent.. I sometimes buy with Marianne's account so that my mom doesn't notice. Seeing as Marianne owes me half of the gas, I just buy things with her account, and then deduct that price with what she eventually owes me)... cuz you see, my mom can see what I spend.. she has access to my account online, through her account. So anything I buy, she pretty much knows. If I want to spend my money, I have to ask her if it's okay. I'm tired of that...

... pretty much, I'm tired of my mom. And if she died, it wouldn't really make a difference. Currently, I barely see her; she's always in her computer room on the main floor, I'm always in my bedroom in the basement. When we eat, she eats in her computer room, I eat in my room. I see her about 30 minutes (more or less) every day, and sometimes, not at all. Pretty much the only difference that I'd get with her not being there is that I'd have to cook my own supper 7 days a week, instead of sometimes (me cooking, means putting something in the microwave :P.. but I'd learn to cook...), and I'd have to pay the bills. Apart from that, not much difference.

So, it's morbid, but I want my mom to die.... and the sooner the better.


(and when she does, I'll have to figure out if I stay in the basement or if I move upstairs... (see ***2 for more info))
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***Nathalie was like a mother to me, when I was young..more than my own mother. I'd always go shopping with her. I'd always go everywhere with her.... when I was young, I called Nathalie 'mom' without realizing it...I sometimes still do. ... Nathalie is only 12 years older than me; my mom's 38 years old. She has so much different taste, that that was a reason I hung out/went shopping and stuff with Nat.

***2 You see, I'd want to stay in my room, because I have my computer, and my tv and all in my room, and it's a bit bigger than my mom's room. If I move upstairs, The computer would have to go in the office. (which I could deal with). I just don't know how I'd feel sleeping in my mom's bedroom... I'd redecorate though. (don't like the wall color, or the tapestry that she put). ... but I like the fact that she has a bath in her bathroom and that she has a walk-in closet. I could always have a tv in my/her room, and have one in the office. If I want to be on my bed, I only have to buy a wirless router... I have a laptop that I use more often (currently on my bed with laptop(plugged to the router), and my normal computer's a few feet away on the desk)... so really, it only comes down to the fact of 'Would I be okay sleeping and all in her room?' .. if not, it's Mari that's going to be in there... I'll have to see when the time comes. hehe. .. would probably move up. Not sure. We'll see. Now, when is she gonna die? Can she die soon? (she has chances of die-ing soon... 1- She smokes a lot. 2- She had a tumor, now it's probably all removed (we don't know yet). 3- Her parents both died when in their fifties... she's currently 56 ... DIE! (mordid much?))

I decided to put the rest as Friend's only, as it won't be a 'what I did during my day' thing, but more what I think or thought... (of course, I will include what I did too, but not to the extent of earlier.. lol.)... so if you want to read, friend me! :D hehe.

School's been... normal... I guess. I mean, I technically have school Monday-Friday, but only one class on Monday, on Tuesday and on Friday is mandatory... so, I only go to those ones (although I spend the entire day on Tuesday and Friday at Uni... just not in class. hehe).

I haven't opened one of the math books yet, and I have the mid-term in 4 days... just about 140 pages to view by then? :D hehe. ... The other math book, I opened just because we had a homework to do... (got 17/18, and seeing as I didn't answer number 7, part 1, part b), that means I everything I did answer, I got right.).... so currently, I have a French homework due the 14th (pretty much done), a Calculus exam the 14th, a ECO homework due the 15th (about about half done), a Algebra exam the 17th, and a admininstration exam the 17th... I really need to start to actually study when I'm supposed to... when I'll be done with ECO homework, I'll start studying for Calculus... then when that's done (when I've actually done the exam), I'll start studying/reading algebra and admin. heh.

Then, the week after that, I'm off... it's a week the Uni gives for people who need to re-do their final exams from last semester... giving the rest of us a week off! :D .. I'm going to Pierrefonds, to meet my friend Jenn :) I can't wait! {hopefully, this will convince her mom (that we aren't killers or something. hehe. ... mom's coming with me...) to let her come to the 'mini-convention' we are having (me and 4 online friends, are gonna meet and spend a week-end at my dad's cottage)...).. I'm gonna see her CEGEP, which will be really weird, but *shrugs* hehe.

Anyways, I'll be going off to do... uh... I should do ECO, but I don't feel like it >.< ... I'll do something for about 20 minutes; then Mari should be arriving here (I'm in the University Center caf. (we have about 4-5 cafs on campus..))... when she does, I'm getting up and going to ger food. :D hehe. ... I don't want to do so now, because that would require me having to close my laptop and then maybe lose my table... by waiting, once she's here, I can just leave the laptop here, and not lose the table!

Anyways, going away.

Blessed Be,
Catheryne

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It's not normal to wish to be paralyzed either in the left leg, or from the waist(sp?) down and to lose my voice permenently (to avoid doing presentions/answering questions) is it? heh.